If there is anything more criminal, more crushing than
injustice; it is a denial of its existence.
I look at the dark clouds hovering over her head, sensing
the talons that are tearing apart her sense of reality. The world outside is
smiling benignly at her anguish, telling her what a sunny day it is and how
wonderful the people who surround her. She is terrifyingly confused. Her voice
is weary, there are endless rewinds and forwards in her narration and I sense,
in her deeply drawn breaths, the vortex of desperation, down under.
She could be any woman, slowly losing her battle to fit or
flee a mould.
I want to shake her and tell her a few things.
They can chip at you, if you let them, are you paying heed?
Humans are like that. They are incomplete entities, in the
forever quest of that elusive and final conclusion. In their bodily tissues run
the primeval neurons that cry out for constant affirmation.
No one is alone, everyone needs it. They all crave recognition
that they are somehow special; an acknowledgement that they are making a
difference. The variations are in the mode that they find their reasons in, to
go on living.
Yes, the succour differs. For some, it is meeting serial
challenges at work. For others there is the delicious daze of the arts. And who
can deny the drugged delight of an hour spent pushing the body. People get high
on the company they keep, the things they buy, the stuff they eat. There are
the adrenalin fans, the movie buffs, the gourmets, the geeks, the family
fanatics, the devotees…they are all good.
But beware!
Beware of the domination junkies. Those who would sink their
hooks into your spirits, oh yes believe it or not, they exist. Their fuel is
control over others. They like to direct, to shame, to induce guilt, to
belittle, to dismiss, and to denigrate. A consistent abuse of life around is a
diehard habit. They are the Suns of their systems, in centrifugal command of
lives tied to theirs. One might spend years denying the existence of this brand
of human transaction; so disarming are these sugar glazed bullies; why, one may
find it too offensive to believe it to be true but the phenomenon exists and
how!
Who do you think you are? You are going too fast, you will
fall! Your clothes or your hair or your colour is not right. Be very very
careful, you might fail. You are not good enough for this. You are not worth
the money at stake. You may be imagining your pain. Your primary duty is to
people around you. You are not beautiful enough, not clean enough, not demure enough,
not tolerant enough, not strong enough, not tall enough, and in fact, not human
enough! You are imagining the craters; it is all beatific and beautiful.
These are the signature words of the vampires of the soul,
gnawing at your sense of self. Given a chance, they would suck the energy out
of you, snapping with one click the will to live. Begin therefore, by
acknowledging their existence. Read up, gather information and arm yourself
with the knowledge of what you are facing. Banish the self-doubts, the
self-effacing fear and step back. Once you have a view of the threat,
disconnect it from your aura in one ruthless lance.
Note: All pics by Aqseer at Hongkong.
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